Sometimes i get stuck in my own fairytale. Then I realize the rest of the world doesn't see it quite the same. Therefore I feel ridiculous. People are the ruiners. Be ashamed of what you take from others, because you take alot. And I can do nothing about it.
It started with a smile and one lone hello, then I was hooked. I was taken and nothing was losing grip. You were perfect in my eyes and in my mind; and in my heart, you were what I was waiting for. I learned more about you and the feelings grew more intense. There was no stopping it then. As I listen to your voice it's branned in my mind as 'the only voice to listen to'. I stare into your eyes and I see myself; clearly, more vibrantly; it makes me feel like nothing else. You get me high from your very presence. Your smile melts my very soul, I cannot in words describe to you how much I love to see you smile. And that laugh, oh that laugh. I could hear it anywhere and recognise it that very second. It's so unique and so incredibly wonderful. No matter how I'm feeling, I hear your laugh and a certain kind of joy runs through me that I cannot refuse. I can honestly say that i've never, ever felt this way. I have never fell for anyone this fast before. I fell so fast that I doubted myself for a while. I thought I was going too fast, I thought it was just lust, but I know now that I was wrong. I would never call it love, I would never call it like. It's beyond the two. My feelings for you have no name, no lable, no words to fully describe it. You can't carry a tune, but I would listen to you sing for an eternity and yet still insist on more. So, in my head we were perfect for each other. In my head we could have been something great. And that's just it, 'in my head' is all we have/ we will ever be. Everything I felt, everything I thought we were, ...everything was just in my head. My fairytale. My fantasy. My world. Nothing is ever what it seems. Reality is so hurtful. Can't we go to my fairytale land? You can't just pretend? I know the answer. That one night was the end. I realise that now. And i'm so sorry for getting carried away. For letting my heart run wild. For letting my imagination take over. It will never happen again.
But for what it's worth, I will miss you unlike any other. I'll always have my fairytale, locked in my head, and you're welcome anytime.
